The comparison game has started and is off running like a racehorse. It’s a kind of insanity, really. What I had and what life was back in Cambodia versus my new life in Thailand.
On the other hand, I suppose it’s human nature. Surely, I’ve done this a zillion times with people, places and possessions. Why the mind likes to rob us of our present moment and peace, I’ll never know.
I have to stop myself from ‘the grass is greener’ mindset. Sometimes, I wistfully think about what I want that Cambodia offered forgetting that when I lived there I did the same with Thailand.
In fact, I returned to Thailand at least once a year when I lived in Cambo. And now I’m thinking of visiting Cambo to buy things and see friends. How strange, how unexpected, how annoying. Am I never satisfied? Or have I finally realized, I mean, down in my bones recognized, that every place has its pros and cons?
Obviously, I knew this on an intellectual level. Well, maybe not so obviously. Obviously, that knowledge was kicking around the ‘ol noggin’, but obviously it was happy to kick around like a pinball in a pinball machine. Or maybe I finally hit upon the high score.