
Iβm going to Hawaii. Iβm going to Hawaii!
Itβs been 6 years since Iβve been back home. Thatβs a long time. In that time span, I could have given birth to a kid and now sheβd be in kindergarten.Β Or I could have gotten another undergrad and masterβs degree. But instead, Iβve been living in Thailand twiddling my thumbs. (By the by, my students think itβs hilarious whenever I twiddle my thumbs whilst I wait for them to stop talking.)
Now, I was in Alabama and Tennessee briefly, very briefly about 5 years ago and thatβs been about the extent of contact with US soil since living abroad. So, Iβm overdue for a visit and I imagine it will be all shocking and stuff until I remember why I left in the first place. Or not. After all, Iβll only be there for 2 weeks, hardly enough time to get sick of it, right?
Hawaii holds a special place for me. I suppose itβs the same for anyone else who thinks of their home, their home state, the place they were born and raised. Hawaii is comprised of immigrants, military personnel and everyone in between. Each island is its own personality, too. But I was born and raised on the main island, where Honolulu is, Oahu, so when I talk about Hawaii, I talk about Oahu.
I know some folks think Southern California is like Hawaii with its bustling Asian population, beaches and lovely weather, but it is not. Iβve lived in So Cal, so I know what Iβm talking about.Β So Cal is expansive, itβs massive compared to Hawaii. There are billboards in California and semi-trucks on top of semi-trucks, pollution and they donβt have their own language like Hawaii does. No, Iβm not talking about Hawaiian; Iβm talking about Pidgin English with Hawaiian words peppered in for a dose of βI have no idea what he just said.β
Overall though, I am curious to see how I feel when I am back. I donβt think I will want to move back to the States and start all over again, no matter how much my mom wants me to return. But I think I will appreciate it like never before. Iβm feeling a great antipathy towards Thailand and all the problems Iβve been having here of late. And Iβm sorry that I havenβt been more forthcoming and honest as I have been in the past. But one of the challenges of writing a personal blog is knowing what to say and what to say later or not at all.
I wonβt be going to Hawaii for another two weeks, but I promise to take a lot of photos and share my adventures. Until then, I hope to surprise you all with another announcement next week. Just a little something Iβve been working on, but Iβve been too terrified to publish it yet. xxoo








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