I wrote this question in my journal some time ago. It originated from moving again. I move a lot. I don’t mean to, necessarily, it just happens. Sometimes I’m envious of those who have normal stable lives. I’d like to try on that lifestyle and be content (could I be content?).
What’s interesting about this question is, what you believe you seek out and what you actually seek out are not always the same thing. I’ve been a natural risk taker when it comes to moving to new places. And I use natural to say, I don’t think of whatever I am doing as a risk. It’s kind of like when folks think you are crazy for doing something you didn’t even realize was nutters.
This question can also apply to different areas of your life, such as: physically, spiritually, and mentally. Some people are really into pushing the boundaries with their health, being healthy and trying new diets or ways of keeping their body healthy through different exercise. Others focus on exploring through their minds or spiritually.
I seemed to have focused on one of the three areas more during various times in my life depending on what where I was at, so to speak. I’ve definitely been through my health-kick phases. I’ve been a vegetarian. I was on a raw food diet. I’ve been really into the gym or aerobics, running and yoga.
I’ve also heavily sought out spiritual literature, understanding world religions and “self-improvement” type books in an effort to grow up, start again and find myself.
And since reading has been a love of mine since my early teens, I’ve certainly expanded out from early genres comfort-zones of science fiction, fantasy, historical romance to non-fiction, blogs, articles, and recommended books that I would otherwise never touch.
These days, I feel like I’m seeing balance. I’m not gung-ho in any one area. Yoga suits my temperament, as well as easy exercise like walking and bicycling on flat roads. I guess I’m into the way exercise makes me feel as I’m doing it. Hard aerobics, on the other hand, feels like an exercise in keeping up with the instructor rather than enjoying the movement.
Spiritually, I can’t say that I’m done with my seeking, so much as I know what I believe in, and with that knowledge I need to constantly remind myself of the truths I’ve worked so hard to seek out. I can’t be lazy, but this is an easy area to be lazy in.
Mentally or intellectually is where I feel the most stimulated at the moment because I’m focusing in on my writing. I love reading about different subjects. I think disciplines are interconnected and this is where we find our answers and the magic in the mundane. Reading is very exciting and relaxing. I look forward to it at the end of the day. I miss those days when I was a kid and I’d actually read all day.
When I was in college, I resented the fact that I couldn’t read what I wanted to read, but instead had to be bogged down by all this academia. Then again, I recognized that this was temporary and soon I’d be able to read what I wanted. When I lived in the US, I took full advantage of the public libraries. I miss grand English libraries and bookstores. (That is why I must get my hands on a Kindle soon!) Thankfully, the expat community is a recycling one. I have been given many books, so it is interesting to read what folks recommend rather than whatever I felt like reading during my regular visits to the library.
Where in your life do you search or explore for new?