I went to Ecuador in search of a place where I could breathe and live. I thought Thailand was too fraught with the birth death birth cycle and I needed to escape. But the distance that had arrived from living on the other side of the world allowed me to see what I had left behind.
I realized I was homesick for a home I barely knew and a relationship that I thought was doomed. How often we run away to discover what is home, hold back to in order to spring forward and give up when we need to keep going.
It turned out that the birth death birth cycle was not something I could escape, even when I wanted to but is very much a part of living. And part of life.
When I left Thailand I knew I would be back. But I didn’t realize that my Ecuadorian adventure would be a Cuencana intermission of five month proportions. It turned out to be a hearty meal packed with new friends, sights, sounds, smells and teaching but Thailand had more to offer me.
I’m sure it will be empty with the kind of fullness I never could predict. I’m sure I will feel every step of starting over again but I also feel more aware of the presence of Guiding Angles or God’s eye than I ever did before.
So I’m back with my ear to the ground to listen to what Thailand has to say.